Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Flight of Ideas

I suddenly find myself unable to keep up with everything. All the balls that I was juggling in the air seem much heavier than they ever did. Things are getting dropped frequently here.

I'm blaming everything on winter. It's dark when I go to work. It's dark when I get home. It's always dark. And cold.

Everyone keeps talking about how mild this winter is. Maybe the weather is. But emotionally, this winter has been anything but mild. The last several months have wrecked havoc on my emotional well being.

I wish I was a bear and could hibernate all the gray, icy days away.

That line sounds like it could be from a children's book.

That's all I read any more, children's books. I can't talk about New York best sellers or the hottest read, but if you want to talk to me about Mo Willems or Oliver Jeffers, I'm all in.

I'm going to start re-reading The Hunger Games trilogy. I am beyond excited for the movie.

Lately, it seems like everyone is watching Once Upon a Time. I really want to watch it, but I just haven't found the time. The few days I thought I had time, we had no internet. I can't do anything without the internet. All my communication, my recipes, the boys' school stuff - it's all on the internet.

The internet is back up. The non-starting car is repaired. The pipe down the street that burst and left us without water is fixed.

Sometimes it feels like everything is back up and running except me.

Don't you hate it when people mention that they are dealing with significant personal issues, and then don't tell you what it is? Well, that's what's going on here. I've been thrown some major curve balls and am trying to figure out how to deal with them. As soon as I figure that out, I'll share it.

The boys are getting their Valentine's ready to share at school. Based on what's on Pinterest these days, I'm sure the boys are going to bring home a variety of darling homemade cards. My boys are handing out store bought Valentines. I refuse to feel guilty. Okay, that's not true. I refuse to let my guilt to me into unreasonable activity.

I need to do some activity.

I need it to be warm.

I wish I was a bear.


  1. I hope you find some balance again. There are other, more important things, then a homemade VD card. Ever read Franklin? Franklin's Valentine Day makes an excellent point.


  2. I wish I was a bear, too.

    Sometimes I wish I was a bear and that winter was 11 months long.

    And homemade Valentines are overrated. You put all that work into them and they're just going to get thrown away anyway. Don't feel guilty for not wasting such valuable time on something so disposable.

  3. I am all for store-bought valentines. My kids like them better anyway.

    I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now, I hope you find some peace soon.

  4. I love you.

    You are bold and brave.

    It's ok to be tired.

    It will be warm soon.

    I love you.

  5. Funny... I actually came across your site b/c you commented on a blogher blog, your name is Katherine and you had a pic of your toes in what looks like the sand. I briefly glanced and thought, "I don't remember taking that picture!" I am a true summer girl... happiest with my toes in the ocean's sand. I HATE winter... I feel so much stress with no sunny days. Actually you know what I got for Christmas that REALLY does work? One of those lights made for seasonal affective disorder. It was only about 40 to 50 on amazon, had rave reviews and honestly, it REALLY DOES WORK. It can't take the place of my beloved Corolla sun, but you should try it.

    Beautiful kids and beautiful blog! Hang in there, summer is just around the corner.

  6. Wish I were there to be anothe shoulder, another warm place, another smile, the extra hand you need. There are no words to tell you how much summer sun you carry with you. Hold on.